Pokemon - Cheeky authoress Misty

Fanfiction Progress: December 2016

Needless to say my writing has been on the back burner yet again. I am working on Chapter 8 of At Sixes and Sevens, but the story’s been a pain in the butt to write lately. It doesn’t help that I’ve been warding off a cold (I haven’t caught it yet, but I can tell my immune system is fighting tooth and nail to stay healthy—which is good, but I can still feel the strain). Plus, winter is starting to rear its ugly face more and more in my hometown, which is never good, either (I’d tolerate—perhaps even appreciate—winter a lot more if my city wasn’t such a deathtrap thanks to its perpetually untreated roadways. Tax dollars hard at work!). My brain just hasn’t been able to focus well lately, is all, which is very frustrating because I want to write!!

Right now, it’s a coin-toss whether or not I’ll finish off 2016 with one last update for At Sixes and Sevens. I’ll consider that a big victory if I can, but I’m not counting my chickens just yet. I’ll probably come to a decision sometime next week, and thereafter (whether Chapter 8 is published or not) I’ll halt further fanfic publications until spring.
  • Current Mood: busy busy
Supernatural - Dean & Sam

Post-Accident Jitters

It’s been an interesting few weeks. I’m happy to report that (it appears) everything has been settled post-car wreck. I’m still vehicleless at the moment, of course, but I’m managing thanks to friends and family (thankfully, my workplace isn’t too far from where I live, so that’s a plus). Honestly, the “worst” part about everything that’s happened has been the effect on my nerves. I don’t want to claim PTSD or anything, but I have noticed I’m much more skittish driving on the road now (and I tend to be a worrywart as it is), but I suppose that’s to be expected after some crazy driver previously came out of nowhere and plowed into me, huh? I still think it’s a beautiful miracle that nobody got hurt. ^_^
  • Current Mood: thankful thankful
Supernatural - Dean & Sam in the Impala

As Long as We're Okay

It’s Halloween season, and I ended up with arguably one of the biggest scares in my life two weeks ago; my vehicle was smashed into. T_T Thank God that nobody was hurt. Still, it’s been a whirlwind of rigmaroles ever since, dealing with the insurance companies and so on, not to mention sleepless nights from post-accident nerves. But it looks like matters are starting to get settled, so hopefully we’ll be able to get on with our lives.

Again, the important thing was that nobody got hurt. Of course, I can’t say the same for my truck—she won’t be coming home, and it’s a bittersweet end to a 15-year era (that truck’s been around for half my life! ;_; Call me sentimental, but that's a lot of memories), but I’m eternally grateful that she went out protecting the even more precious people riding inside her. That accident was a nightmare, but it could have ended much, much worse, too. I’ve been counting my blessings ever since that I can still come home at night and hug my loved ones. That’s all that really matters.

Stay safe this Halloween, folks.
  • Current Mood: thankful thankful
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Pokemon - Cheeky authoress Misty

Fanfiction Progress: October 2016

Just when I think I’ll be able to really get back into fanfiction my schedule gets all whacked-out again. @_@ It’s to be expected at this time of year with pre-winter prep (yes, we’re already getting ready. I can’t believe it, either. But considering how last winter was on the mild side in my neck of the woods, we can’t expect lightning to strike twice). Plus, everybody in the higher end of my job’s hierarchy suddenly got the urge to go on vacation during the past month, so I’ve been filling in (and earning some extra cash, which has already gone into early Christmas shopping). Needless to say fanfiction is back on the back burner.

I do plan on updating At Sixes and Sevens, ideally this month because the currently-drafted Chapter 7 is a somewhat spooky-themed tale appropriate for the Halloween season (^_^). Going forward from there, I’m not sure how the remainder of 2016’s updates will fare—I MIGHT hold off further updates until after New Year, solely because this is always my busy season. But that’s subject to change given my finicky schedule and finickier writing muse.

On the brighter side, I've been feeling better (health-wise), a nice improvement from the last time I visited LJ. I'm on a small regimen of simple supplements and a revised sleep schedule (what I need most!) and that seems to be doing the trick. Nothing major, thank God. :)

  • Current Mood: good good
  • Current Music: Random OSTs
Saiyuki - Goku

It's Amazing/Scary What Stress Can Do

It's been a few months since my much-needed job change, and while I'm feeling much better (and happier) to be out of that negative situation, I've noticed that my overal health hasn't improved by the leaps and bounds I'd expected. My doctor suspects I may have (probably) developed some poor habits (sleeping, eating, etc.) during my previous job, and my body's having a slower recovery. Yes, I admit I wasn't sleeping/eating well during my old job, and after over year's worth of self-damage these things don't fix themselves overnight. So right now it's a detective game to figure out what exactly I'm missing/need in order to get back to my usual self, 100%.

It's really eye-opening to see what long-term stress can do to the body. Ever since I changed jobs, yes, I've been happier, but I also feel like I've been recovering from one long hangover. A friend had suggested I take "some time off" after leaving my previous job, rather than jumping into another one, just to recover better and be more refreshed for the challenges of my next job. It wasn't a bad idea, but considering how much trouble I had finding a new job in the first place I wasn't in a position to pick and choose "when" I could start fresh. You have to strike when the iron's hot, too. So there was no time for any mini vaction. But in hindsight it's no wonder why my "recuperation" is progressing more slowly.

Hopefully with my doctor on board we'll find a solution that'll help me feel more like myself and I can get back to all my randomness. ^^ I miss being, well, me!

  • Current Mood: drained drained
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Pokemon - Wobbuffet!

And You Said I was Crazy

It's no secret that I recently ditched my old crappy job for greener pastures. And while the majority of family/friends have supported my choice (most agree "it's about time!"), one particular acquaintance of mine wasn't so much. Incidentally, she worked alongside me at said job, so she was well aware of how stressed and unhappy I was, yet after I left she'd say things like, "oh, the job wasn't that bad," as though I was stressing out over nothing or was a plain wuss. She wasn't exactly our A-hole boss' number-one fan, either. Personally, I suspect she was just upset because I "left her behind" in that dump, and bossman probably saddled her with my abandoned workload. Whatever her reason, I didn't appreciate her attitude, and it made me almost regret leaving...but I had my health to think about. My choice to quit wasn't any reflection on her--If she thinks the place "isn't so bad," then she's more than happy to stay there for the rest of her life!

I heard through the grapevine that she quit Monday.

I'm not arrogant enough to expect an apology or anything. This news just reinforces my confidence in my decision to quit--that job was stressful and our boss was an ass. I wasn't some exception. The boss treats everybody equally...like shit. Some businessmen are just like that. I wish him (and his future employees) luck, because in the span of a month he's already lost two people, and let's just say the other people who work there aren't exactly the happiest of campers. I realize it's hard for businesses to find good people nowadays, but it's a two-way street: if you want good people to work for you, you have to treat them well, too.

  • Current Mood: relieved relieved
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Supernatural - Dean & Sam

Moral of the Story: Worrying Accomplishes Nothing

Latest goings-on in my life have been pretty boring but busy. I’m still getting used to my new job (as in I’m still a total rookie, something my boss doesn’t seem to quite fathom. Newsflash: newbies are bound to screw up in the beginning. It’s called learning and gaining experience!)…but on a whole it’s still much better than the shithole I worked for previously. Is it weird of me to say that I’m not overly worried? I mean, sure, I worry about job security, money, etc. like anybody else, but for some reason I don’t find myself stressing the hell out like I used to (and I’m a certifiable worrywart). So either I’ve grown some self-confidence, or I’ve been so numbed by my last job experience that nothing really fazes me anymore. Watch, the shit will hit the fan tomorrow and I’ll be eating my words. Then again, I suppose there’s always a possibility that hell can break loose tomorrow (hell, even today!)…that’s life! Worrying accomplishes nothing, except depriving me of sleep I reeeeeally need to catch up on.
  • Current Mood: complacent complacent
Xenosaga - Jr. hearts Eastwood flicks

Can't Wait for Zero Time Dilemma!

The third and final entry in the Zero Escape series, Zero Time Dilemma, debuts tomorrow, and like many fans I am thrilled! And to think that not long ago that there was a large possibility that this game would never materialize. But it goes to prove that game developers do listen to what their fans want.

Zero Escape has a special place in my heart, primarily because it was the first visual novel that truly opened my eyes to the ellusive video game genre. Now visual novels have become one of my favorite types of games, and I'm always clammoring for more to be localized in English. That's why I can't stress it enough: if you're a gamer who's even a tiny bit curious about Japanese visual novels, the Zero Escape series is a great starting point. It's got a great balance of story and puzzle, and though not all visual novels follow that exact formula, I found it to be particularly effective for a first-time western gamer such as myself (who expected some level of interaction in a video game).

Needless to say I have extremely high hopes for Zero Time Dilemma, and I doubt I'll be disappointed. It's sad to see the series end, but you know what they say about all good things. ;)
  • Current Mood: excited excited
  • Current Music: Hatsune Miku: Project DIVA f 2nd OST
Walking Dead - Okay?

When One Door Closes...

Let me begin by saying this entry is long overdue.

It’s no secret that I’ve been MIA for a while now, a fact that kills my conscience whenever I think of the friends with whom I’ve neglected to keep in contact. Sadly, anybody who knows me knows that I tend to turn turtle and curl up into my shell when my mood sours…and that’s mildly describing how I’ve felt lately.

In hindsight, I wish I had a better excuse for my absence rather than job troubles—not to say work-related issues are not a legitimate reason for stress (they most certainly are!), but what irks me is that it was my crappy, totally-not-worth-the-trouble job that crippled my mood. Because the job simply was not, in any way, worth all the hassle, depression, anxiety, and health problems it created for me. And in the end, that was my wake-up call to leave it. So yes, mark the calendar; Aiselne finally walked away from her job from hell, and I honestly feel like I broke up a borderline-abusive relationship. No exaggeration.

Of course, for those of you wondering why in hell it took me so long to make such a blatantly obvious decision, I’d struggled to find an alternative job. As if having a shitty job isn’t killjoy enough, failing to land a better job can be even more depressing. But either: a.) luck smiled on me, b.) another employer was impressed with my skills, or c.) said employer was desperate/drunk/delirious/etc… However you want to look at it, I finally found myself a better job. :) Granted, it’s not perfect (what job is?) and I’d reeeally like to gain a few more hours a week, but I figure I can work myself up the ladder. One step at a time.

Best of all, my mood has improved tenfold. It’s gonna’ take a little more time for my body to readjust itself, but I am sleeping better, so that’s definitely a good start. I’m hoping this healthy upward improvement will continue so I can enjoy the approaching summer. I’ve got boatloads of backlog to catch up on!!

I can’t make any promises right now, but I am hoping to get back into the swing of my fanworks (I miss them so!). Chapter 5 of At Sixes and Sevens is in progress and still has a tentative publication later this month, early July at the latest. I don’t want to pile too many WIPs on my plate right now until I get better acclimated with my new job and schedule. Hopefully I’ll have some more definitive updates next month.

In the meantime, tremendous thank yous (a million times over) to all my friends who have been so patient and understanding with me during my sad little hiatus. With that lousy chapter in my life officially over, my goal is to make the next one much, much better.
  • Current Mood: accomplished accomplished
  • Current Music: "Enamel" - SID
Saiyuki - Goku

Fanfiction Progress: April 2016

It seems like whenever I think I’ll finally have time to return to my guilty pleasures, something comes along to hinder me. As usual, my job’s a perpetual pain in the ass, I got sick yet again, yadayadayada! It’s pretty rare for me to come home at night and not fall asleep before my favorite primetime shows air (I have missed EVERY EPISODE of Supernatural season 11 so far!! T_T And life is NOT good when you’re deprived the Winchesters). I just bought Black Butler: Book of Circus this morning and I have no clue when I’ll actually be able/conscious enough to watch it. T^T

Needless to say, writing has been difficult. I’m already one month behind on At Sixes and Sevens. But miraculously, I do have almost one chapter ready for publication—the only problem is that it’s Chapter 4, and I haven’t yet finished Chapter 3! O_O Apparently my writing muse is still as finicky as ever. Fortunately with 6&7s being a one-shot collection, the standalone chapters don’t technically need to be released chronologically…except that I’ve formatted the series to be number-based: Chapter 1 is “One Once,” Chapter 2 being “Two Scoops,” and so on, so if I were to publish Chapter 4 first, the ordering will be 1, 2, and 4. It’d be kinda’ dumb to skip 3, eh? *sighs* Leave it to me to make more work for myself.

But I’m not giving up on Chapter 3 just yet. There’s still two weeks in April to make up for lost time. The chapter itself is just being difficult, namely because it’s turning out longer than I anticipated—long enough to potentially be multi-chaptered, which defeats the point of a one-shot collection. So I’ll have to see what I can do to rework certain elements and ultimately determine if this story should stay in 6&7s’ anthology, or become its own individual fanfiction story in the future…assuming I’d have the time for it, of course. ^^;

It’s all going to boil down to how well I can recuperate myself. Thankfully I’ve gotten over the worst of my flu, but it’s still left me feeling drained. Dealing with the day-to-day bullshit of my job doesn’t put me in the proper, happier mood for writing, either. But I want readers to know that I’ll do the best I can to keep my stories going. I just started 6&7s, after all, and I’m not ready to quit yet!
  • Current Mood: tired tired
  • Current Music: Etrian Odyssey 2 Untold Rough Sketch OST